Movie Theatres

I miss going to the movies. There is something about seeing a movie in a theatre that beats out watching a movie on television. I guess it's because everything is so much bigger and the sound is so great. I've noticed that every time I go to the movies, I always like the movies I see. It's as though the entire experience just makes the movie better or something. It could also be that I rarely go to the movies unless I'm certain that the movie is going to be good. If I hear a lot of bad things about a movie then I'm really not going to waste my time.

But anyway, back to missing the movies. I don't go half as much as I used to because it's so expensive now. Going to the movies costs about 14 dollars where I live. That's as much as buying a movie on dvd, so that is just really ridiculous to me. I remember when we used to go to the movies early in the day because they would have matinees and it was great. Now they don't even offer that anymore. I think there is one theatre that does it like 2 hours away from where I live and by the time I get there the time and money I spend traveling will end up costing the same as a full price movie.

I think a lot of movie companies wonder why people are pirating so much more now, and it's because of how much money it costs to enjoy something as simple as a movie. Perhaps it wouldn't happen so much if these things were more accessible to everyone.

Other People

Sometimes I find being around other people really unbearable. I look around at other people and I feel disappointed with how awful they are. There are so many bad people in this world. I think there is something wrong with me since I have such an inability to like anyone else. It's very rare that I meet someone and really comprehend who they are. I guess other people probably feel the same way about me, and that's okay.

This really came to the forefront last weekend when I went out with a couple of friends. There was someone there who I am not really friends with, but is a closer friend of another friend of mine. I just can't stand him. He's such an awful obnoxious person and it really made me lose faith in humanity. I can't understand how anyone like him could exist, but I feel like he is the sort of person who has opinions that a lot of other people have as well.

I want to like other people, I really do. I would like to have friends that have things in common with me and who don't make me want to bash my head in, but it's so hard to meet people like that. It's probably more of a problem that I have to solve within myself than an issue that's the fault of others to be honest. Oh well. I guess I'll just grow up to be one of those old people who is really grumpy and yells at children to get off of their lawn. Except I probably won't have a lawn because I live in the city.

Not related but I like this nail blog.

Disconnected

I'm not good at connecting with others. It's something that I've struggled with ever since I was a kid. I was never the kid in class with a lot of friends. For the most part, I was always the kid in class without any friends. Making friends isn't the only problem though. Yes, making friends is hard for me. But even when I do have a friend, I still feel a lack of connection to anyone. I don't know if this means that there is a problem with me, or maybe I am just not making friends with the right kinds of people.

Don't get me wrong. I like my friends and they are all fabulous people. But I can't help but feel really alone even when I am surrounded by friends. A lot of friendships seem so superficial. Like we get together and we have fun and we talk and do things. But at the end of the day, I don't feel like anyone is really actually there for me. I don't feel particularly close to the people who are in my life. I used to think that this wasn't a big deal, since I am a loner for the most part. I enjoy being on my own. But it would be nice to know that there are even a couple of people there for me no matter what. And at this point in my life, I don't think that is the case.

It's harder to make close connections to people when you get older. Everyone is so busy with their own lives that you feel like you're not actually involved in anyone's life. It's very strange.